im tired. tired of all this. tired of all this talk that im gonna work harder next year. and when next yr comes, im just gonna slack. all this just feels like lies to me. but i actually console myself everytime by saying that. i know its not realistic, but but but i just make myself better. everytime i decide to be determined and work hard. i waver along the way and give up. what's wrong with me?

cried on the way home. really hard. lower than i expected. like REALLY LOW. was very surprised though. how can i be that stupid ? no offence to those who gt the same/lower GPA than me, bt yeah. just feel really depressed now. same words: hope i can get a higher GPA next yr. really hope so

drama performance today was ok. quite interested in the beginning, budden PAC so cold. had no interest in the drama anymore... was like having a mild shiver. brrrr. damn cold folded my legs and placed my hands on my neck. haha scraped through the drama performance. its like no subtitles very diff. to catch wat they talkin abt. roughly knew what they were acting. lost the storyline and FORGET IT. inline skating tmr. hope it will be fun...

maths trail was ok i would say on an average scale. but was pissed off halfway. ppl in my grp would probably think that it was around the quadratic graphs stations, if they even noticed...

well. i had to admit. it contributed. but the fact that i was thinking abt some obnoxious person that is like so damn being a FUCKIN-BITCH. u just wanna make more friends dont u? poking ur nose into everything, trying to understand people in order to win them over. u think u have a lack of friends dont u? ur actions totally disgust me. can change your mood in an instant and chat with other people naturally and turn a blind eye to somebody who is crying- infront of you. u make me feel that u are like wat? DESPO FOR FRIENDS? i hope we will not be in the same class next yr. I SINCERELY HOPE.... arrgh. u just piss me off.

really been bored with no studying to do. and i just realised that not all friends are dependable. well, i guess thats part of life. when u have your back turned to things, you may not know what is happening behind your back. seriously. god always finds a way to shock u when u have having a great time. watever.

hmm. wasnt perfectly a fine start of the day.. due to me only sleeping 4h that night.death note was seriously fun. though i watched it before. finally slept at 1.13am. haha checked my phone:D

reached tampines interchange at around 7.10? sian. took bus 28 even though we were so called "queueing" for bus 18. wth. then bus came we got on. got down at some bus stop. didnt know where we were but we walked for quite a dist. before we finally reached the sch...

separated in groups. my group was " kinetic"!!! movement of energy and blah blah. we were quite noisy and the mam say need to do 50 pumpings??? like wth. on that rough and full of pebbles ground. surely knees will bleed lor. but heng, never do.

games and stuff. then lunch. the chicken rice full of chicken bones. asshole. almost every mouthful of chicken got one bone lah.damn irritating. sort of feedbacked and found out that some other ppl didnt have chicken bones at all. i bet the chicken rice owner has a grudge against me :(

then was water games... didnt bring extra pt kit. sucks lor nvr tell us need to bring. the game was damn fail lor. everybody was quickly eliminated. like so redundant?? some idiotic freakin freaks go burst my water bag and made me wet. YOU DIE. vulgarities spewed out of my mouth naturally :p but watever lor.

damn tired after all this. but i wanna watch tv!!!! must cheng zhu. tv is my life:D

oh yah last thing: i found out who invented tv- Philo Farnsworth. he's my idol!!!

finally got back ALL the results. finally. spared me the trouble of worrying day and night.

thinking about the gpa i will get and causing much loss of hair.

ok. thats a bit exaggerating. but then. it still causes stress anyway...

i can forget about making all those promises..." if i get ___ for ___ i will___" yesh.

finally i can forget about past results. concentrating on playin. or watching dramas :D

after all there might be disappointing results. what's done has been done.

LOOK FORWARD!!!! post-exam activities comin out... have lots of fun :D

first comp trng. quite boring at the start. like what they call "one-way commmunication"

nobody bothered to talk. or should i say, no one dared to talk?

yeah and it was just like dry theory based stuff.

after all those cases and practicals stuff. we brightened up. like shouting " barrack obama" and stuff.

made a mess of bandages and laughed like siao.

footdrillw as the fun part. we had to command/ which was like alien to me?

just repeated what other people said. lol. had fun.

that was the most important part.

haha. took turns to command. then had to be loud. which is definitely no problem.. :D

budden the commands may be a bit diff. to me lor. the pronounciation damn idiotic complica.

see first lah. anyway learnt a lot today. maybe this signifies a new start for me :D

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everyone's stressed up. im no exception :(